~ Fight ~

Taking control of life
that is meant to be mine
a life full of happiness and joy
but caught in the middle of a raging war.
Years of fighting has taken its toll
as I sit and watch my life
fight with every tool and nail,
a glimmer of hope surfaces
a little bundle of joy
kicking and screaming
ready to take its place.

For too many years,
I watched as life tossed me
here and there,
up and down.
It is all a game,
I told myself
one minute I would seem to be a winner,
and the next finish as the runner-up.

But a life without a reason
now has a meaning
a battle without a plan
now has a purpose,
to live and fight another day.

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When she asked a question
“Are you with me out of need, or choice?"
As he looked into her eyes,
He fought with fate and truth and lies,
And seeking answers deep within,
He wondered if he could begin,
And so the moment paused until
He felt his life was standing still.
And when at last the clock moved on,
And eye to eye began to speak,
As a single fear ran down her cheek,
He told her what he thought she knew,
“It’s my choice, to be here, with you.”
He continued ....
"I’m here and I will stand by you,
Each hill you have to climb.
So take my hand lets face the world,
Live one day at a time.
because it's only for a Lifetime
That I'm trapped in Love with you."
........a long pause happened
and nothing was left unanswered.

" Hope Remains "

Some say life is easy
but truly living it is not.
times get hard, people struggle
and constantly get put on the spot.
In some others pretty eyes
There's a great painful disguise
For in every beat of a lonely heart
There is hope that lights the path
I'm going to wear the biggest smile
even though I want to cry.
I'm going to fight to live
even though I'm destined to die.
Hearts breaks
Souls die
I will not be silenced
Hope always remains
and even though it's hard and I may struggle through it all.
You see me struggle
you will never see me fall.

~ Silence in me ~

In the past, the future looked too close to hold..
And now the present seems like it's too close and cold
Inside myself looking out, it all seems fake
Whatever motivates, the day puts it away
Used to be apathetic, loved the only one living
I'm speaking to the world, but I'm the only one in it
Your eyes couldn't watch the way the world spins
I'll sit there and watch on the day the world ends
If its burns then, and flows in the wind
Because who knows if your steps are planned out..
I feel lost, and no body's there to stick a hand out
I feel like I lived with my self too long
This isn't the right time or place for these words
We don't have the right kind of space for these birds
If we all could fly, If we all could cry
Everybody would laugh, and we all would die
The sky hangs over my head, I can feel the weight
Conceal my fate, and let me just deal with hate
I don’t even know why I feel this...
Why my existence is one long, endless abyss.
But, I’m still here, no matter what my dreams might say
And I hope that one day I will actually be okay.

"इंसाफ करो...."

धर्म और अधर्म की व्याख्या
तो स्पष्ट थी
फिर कौन सी समस्या में
तुम उलझे थे
जो किसी की उतरती लाज
आपको क्रुद्ध न कर सकी |

इतना भयानक उत्पीड़न
शायद इतिहास
फिर न लिख पाये...
इसलिए अब उसके दोहराने
की प्रतीक्षा न करो ....

    इंसाफ करो !!!!
>>Stop Rape by imposing strict laws.<<

"From Love To Nowhere..."

You cannot feel my thunder,
although it trembles true.
A million moments of laughter,
every time I think of you.

I hate you like a cold breeze,
that tears right through my skin.
I hate you so much more,
because you are my sin.

To live a life without you,
would take my soul from me.
But I guess it's like they all say,
that love is like the sea.

"Go On"

Yes, so many things have changed
did you think they'd stay as arranged?
Don't dare look back
look straight ahead
calm your fears
dry your tears.
I know love hurts and broke your heart
keep your head
and heart apart.
Crying won't help
what you have had ... atleast you had it
don't be sad.
But time will heal
perhaps a new life
will then reveal.
So, it's all worth it
what's to gain... when you love someone
who brings you pain??
Walk away and stand up tall
count your blessings... one and all.

Offering Love

We're lost and yet, we strive to carry on,
to see the sun once more.
But often we  move too fast,
or try to skip ahead.
Even a glance through a book,
can't know what we have read.
Each story cultivates a path,
from beginning to end.
It's a trail true love must follow,
the way that it was penned.
Happy endings are rarely found,
and if no love can then be found,
you'll be alone again.
For if offered love is free,
and it need not be earned,
What merit do you think it has,
when it is not returned?
So if you seek this treasured prize (love),
Here's what you'll have to do.
The love you offer someone else
Must also mean something to you.

तुम मेरे क्या हो?

मिल जाती है सारी खुशियाँ जिसमे
अनमोल सा तुम वो लम्हा हो
मीत हो मेरे या सखा हो
कह लेती हू व्यथा अपने दिल की
माँ के मन सा कोमल जज़्बा हो

कोई चाह नहीं तुमसे कुछ पाने की
अनजाना अनसुना सा जैसे कोई एहसास हो तुम
बंध गए है एक डोर में मन तेरे मेरे
जैसे प्रेम पगा हो
जानना चाहती हू.... तुम मेरे क्या हो??

" To Say Or Not .... "

Basically I keep my feelings a secret
I'm not the type to say what I feel
With you it's no different
I want to tell you, believe me I've tried
but, there's  part of me that just can't take any chances.
So, I doubt that you'll ever know,
which may be fine with you, but it hurts me,
I won't tell you though.
May be it's the way you say my name
or the way you smile
or may be just everything,
getting to know you seems worth my while.
Sometimes I think, what's there to hide?
Then,slowly my heart takes brains side.
I guess I'll never say it.
I would never reveal my feelings to you,
I'll just love you from distance,
as I'm not sure what else there is to do.

"Bad--Good"

Sometimes the bad times seems to over weigh the good,

because we don't remember the so much better times as much as we should.

Many shadows of good times are buried in the mountain we call time,

memories of the bad times seem to stay right at the front of our mind.

Goodtimes we have were not appreciated and ultimately taken for granted,

the bad we nurture and cultivate in our hearts like weeds we have planted.

Now as the years go on,

the bad forever on our mind,

and we don't seem to remember or realize,

just how much we have wasted our precious time.

So now lets have sometime , a break, from all bad

let go the negative and recapture the good we ones had

Spending more time dwelling on things that are good

And, how to respect one another as much as we should.

 

Trying to define....

I cherish within my soul,
this treasure of love
how much I love you...
you'll never really know.
Eternity is a step away,
my love continues to grow.
All the love that history knows,
is said to be in every rose.
Yet all that could be found in two,
is less than what I feel for you.
Love's been defined a millions times,
words fail me & I am left with mimes.
May be this could help, so...
I'll tell it on the mountaintops,
in all  places high and  low,
love for you is my reason to be,
and will never break or bow.

I Miss you ...

~~ This is for my Sister like Friend Nisha Patil. We lost her on this day March 11th  2003.
I miss you Nisha ... & this is for you:

You always understood my fears,
You always stopped my tears
We'd talk and laugh and live it up,
And now I wait ...
I cry my shallow tears,
And give voice to all new fears.

Lord has taken you away,
but in my heart you will always stay.
There are so many thoughts I left unspoken,
wishing I could go back and tell you everything that left me heart broken.

If I could speak to you one last time I would say
"why did you have to go so far away... I miss you so much please stay!!"
I won't say, I haven't moved on ... I have.
But with you my life would have been lovely.

In Touch...

The person that I have grown into today
Did not get there by chance, no way
I am who I am partly because of you
And you are You because of me, too.

The changes I see
and what I have learned about me
are a response to how we affected our lives
and what we discover in each others eyes.

Our feelings might be different a year from now
But you are part of me forever somehow.
A part of me will always be you
and a part of you will always be me.

I will never forget you
For my love is honest and true....

Someone * Somewhere

Whether it be the person down the street
Or someone you have yet to meet.
To find the one that you will love
It could be the one you push and shove.

Remember love comes in many different things
Not just money, cars, or diamond rings.
Love is a mysterious wonder
So you have to pick, hunt, choose, and plunder.

Don't just look for beauty and fame
Look for one in which you could feel no pain.

If you ever find the one for you
Hold them and everyday say I love you.

For love can always come and go
But if true it will stay through highs and lows.

If you haven't found your true love
Keep looking for signs from above.

They will come one day
Until then we can only pray.

No Title ...

It's a throwaway age for one and for all.
Nobody wants to hear the heart's call
Society around us is falling apart,
Things just go wrong right from the start.
Friendships appear to be a disdain,
Instead we use others for personal gain.
Running for cover, from  storm rain,
Feelings for others slaughtered and slain.

Already the price is being  paid.
Society gone and relationships frayed.
It will only get worse as standards downgrade.
Are we numb to the slide, or really afraid?

We can change it all, its not too late.
Bring on the love instead of the hate.
All is not lost if we'd communicate.
Destruction should not be our final fate.

       [ Still searching for a Title, suggestions are welcome. Thankyou. ]

Get Real...

Lokpal- again in news! The Anna team, before breaking somehow had one voice.The lok pal bill will die a silent death.Government wants a weak  lokpal , with  weak foundation so that it collapses automaticlly being a toothless organisation .
 The govt does not want the the lok pal bill to become a reality .It is trying to divide the people and opposition parties on amendments to the bill. The motive is to create confusion let them fight and ultimately all opposition parties will have to share the blame for not passing the bill .
Agitations have been shown many times with out any wanted results. No need of agitation any more.
                               Anna,If you think that politicians assured you of strong Lokpal, you are too easy to be fooled. Do you believe that those in power will cut their own hands and control corruption? Corruption is their  way of life. They fooled you and laughed all the way to the Bank. Now you want to believe the new VP is  interested in making good honest government?  After the election, all promises will be forgotten. You must be kidding.
     These are the loopholes in the proposed lokpal  : 
1.   Even though wide criticism , central bureau of investigation is not made autonomous 
2.   There is wide demand that govt servants, bureaucrats be included in lokpal 
3.    citizen charter is not brought in.
It clearly appears ,Govt does not want transparency. Get real Anna align with Aam Admi Party to make the JanLokpal a reality.

Jai Hind.

Begin Again....

What used to be "good days" are now filled with dismay.
Tomorrow comes, and then again, it goes,
And my ambition to become something more, grows.
Around the corner, yet miles away,
The life I want now, gets closer each day.
I’ve been basing my life upon what others think,
I wish I could go back and redo everything,
every time an eye would blink.
            I've fought to become who I am and what I want to be,
            I have to remind myself that one day, I will be free.
            Free from the rules I followed as a child,
            When everything was a game and life was so mild.
            Now times have changed and I realize nothing is fair,
            And sometimes it seems like nobody even cares.
            But, may what come I would Begin again....

_Belief_

Quite universal feeling Love is......not talking about Romance though. Love evolves & blooms out of good Heart.
Trust, on the other hand, is actually the extremity of the same case.
Trust is the measure of the Strength and Pride one has in One'sLove.
Belief is something that emerges from the darkness and delusion as the brightest source of light ever, Brighter than a hundred thousand Suns.
A Fight against your own Belief and view and a struggle to keep your Love breathing. A Noble state which can be achieved by giving complete heart and soul in a clash against our conception, for something which you believe is to be true.
When the heart has been subjected to the hard side, that's when one can understand the greatness of trust.
To cut a long story short, just don't lead a pointless life just cos' it seems to be the easy way.

         We can never appreciate or respect the belief bestowed upon us, unless & untill we understand.

Telangana: "Who wants what..."

Andhra and Rayalaseema People do not want Telangana, for their own reasons, good or bad. Centre does not want Telangana for its own reasons. Neighboring states could not care less and in some cases, do not want Telangana because the bifurcation could spell trouble for them too (in their own cases). KCR does not want Telangana because he might  not sure if he will win the elections in an all party contest in a separate state... if Telangana remains a region with special funds, he can go on winning some key seats along with his relatives and also keep his hands all the way into the cookie jar of special funds. With a separate state, he will not get to do that.
           There are lot of solution to solve Telungana problem using existing system. State and Central government should work together to find a solutions. (OR) implement president rule in AP for next 6 months and bring state under control.
          When the outcome of a decision is what will get a party more votes in teh short term rather than the welfare of the people, the Government will waver. Clearly shows that this hardly a decision based on merits else they would have decided one way or the other.
         I dont know, how this procrastination is going to help. Anticipation and uncertainities will only add fuel to the raging fire.

New Day...

The world around moves at a frantic pace
For me each day seems to slow down
I believed the answers were in my grasp
In those younger innocent years gone by,
I knew exactly , what I wanted out of life
Dreams were in great supply.
But something derailed me along the way
Something unexpected , far from sublime,
I've begun to realize the passing of time.

Indecision used to be terrain I did not know,
Often now, faith determines my life's flow.
I must see the good things along the way,
The sun sets, I smile, soon comes a new day.  :-)

" Distance "

Thoughts I cannot truely see,

dreams that cannot ever be,

chains that are not setting me free.

   This heart of mine,

trying endless climb

wishing I could draw a line,

crying for the final time.

I spend nights up wondering
If I can stand all these emotions.
Let these feelings soak into the ground,
I'm so sick & tired of staying here bound,
without you around,
in some other town.
 

~Sweet Irony Of Love~

I craved someone to be along
Not because I cried
Not because I begged and pleaded,
But because it was left up to them and they felt much needed.
    No matter how much I love someone
It doesn't mean that they'll love me back
My love cannot make them feel the same way
My thoughts and emotions are not theirs.
   No matter how much someone loves me
It does not mean that I will love them too
Their love cannot built a love within me
Their thougths and emotions are not mine.
    I cannot pretend to love when I don't
It's not fair on either side.
Hi5 needs two hands of similar essence of feelings within.
One hand cannot complete the Hi5
   In the end, only if I'm true to myself & to my heart
Being honest & not scared helps both.
Only then, is there a chance of happiness
Only then, is there a chance of fruitful love.

_Story_

A lovely bright morning...
in the middle of the night,
two dead boys came out to fight.
They stood back to back
and faced each other
drew their swords
and shot eachother.
The deaf policeman heard the noise
and came to kill
those two dead boys.
If u don't believe my story
it's true
ask the blind man he saw it too!!!   ;-)

"STUCK"

This Awesome track is Stuck in my Head......& can't stop yelling

__Forgave__

 It's a feeling I'll never forget.
All the memories that we've shared,
I knew right away that you were rare.
You see, it's hard to find a someone like you,
Usually they're too good to be true.

All I wanted was to make you happy,
So why is it that I have to feel so crappy?
I want nothing more than for us to move on,
But it's so hard now that the trust is gone.

I want to get past this, I really do...
What can I do to make you be true?
You hurt me, you need to know that you did.
And I need you to know that I can forgive....